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| Haven't written any diary here for a long time... it seems that I have no mood to write down anything about myself... how horrible is it? I cannot deny having a lot of happinesses in my homeplace... however, I cannot deny that I get lost... I don't like this feeling... however, I don't know why I have this feeling... Oh, God... please deliver me from temptation... I really feel that the reason why I have bad mood due to my self-centered personality... God... sorry... | | |
| Time flies... I have been staying in UK for more than 5 years... God is full of love and mercy. When I look back the time I was in UK, I find that my life was full of His care. I could not deny that I was not always faithful due to difficulties of my study, friendship, work, etc. However, everytime when I fell down, God would pick me up. He knows that I am a person who cannot live without Him and be alone so He provides good churches and friends for me in Derby, Sunningdale, London, Wirral and Liverpool. I won't forget the time with my friends, brothers and sisters in Christ in UK. We prayed, worshipped and played together. How amazing it was? Today, brothers and sisters of Wirral Chinese Christian Church gave me a touching farewell. They prayed for me and let me share my feeling in front of them... haha, I nearly cried. May God bless all of you and shine upon you all. Although we will be apart, we can pray for each other :). Sometimes, I really don't know why I have to move from one place to another so often... to be my honest, I really hate moving home... I just would like to settle down in a place... having a tighter brotherhood with brothers and sisters in Christ... The brotherhood between people in Wirral and myself is just built but I am going to leave very soon... Anyways, we will definitely meet each other in the future. As we have the same belief, we will meet in the heaven as well. I was very busy in these weeks... visiting friends, brothers and sisters in Christ in London, Sunningdale and Derby. I thought it was impossible to meet all my friends in this short period of time but God really planned for me and I was able to meet most of my friends. It's so amazing. May God guide and guard you (Phoebe, Martha, John, Paul, Agi, Brenda, Adrian, Ruth, John M., Helen, Sarah, Laura, Margaret, Freda, Catherine, Bo Zhen, Xiulian, Jiang, Jorico, Jessie, Andy, Gou, etc.) What I am thinking now is how to pack all my stuffs in the suitcase, haha. | | |
| Hope that I can leave a message here successfully without any lap-top crash... I did type a long passage of an article here yesterday to share with friends but the lap-top was crashed... a bit sad cos' it's in Chinese...It takes longer to type Chinese texts than English... When will we praise our Heavely Father? No matter in happinesses or difficulties? Will we just praise our Lord when everything is on the track? I find that I am not faithful enough... I do not always have a peaceful heart... when I cannot achieve sth. which I hope for at that time, I will feel a bit lost... I will blame myself or maybe blame others... At that time, I neglect God is in control, He will guide me and guard me. May God forgive me and let me be still. The life you have depending on your attitude towards it. The article below which I would like to share is quoted from 廣佈線眼 of Liverpool Chinese gospel Church 感覺上，中國人總是先一昧的責怪，讓已經夠自責的人更難過…這篇的確值得讓人學習。 一名署名約翰衛斯理的人寫了這樣的一個故事。 一對夫婦在婚後十一年生了一個男孩，夫妻恩愛，男孩自然是二人的寶。男孩兩歲的某一天，丈夫在出門上班之際，看到桌上有一藥瓶打開了，不過因為趕時間，他只揚聲妻子把藥瓶收好，然後就關上門上班去。妻子在廚房忙得團團轉，就忘了丈夫的叮囑。男孩拿藥瓶，覺得好奇、又被藥水的顏色所吸引，於是一飲而盡。藥水成份厲害，即使成人服用也只能用少量。男孩服藥過量，被送到醫院後，返魂乏術。妻子被事實嚇呆了，不知如何面對丈夫。緊張的父親趕到醫院，得知噩耗十分傷心，看兒子的屍體，望了妻子一眼，然後說了四個字。 作者叫讀者猜，這丈夫說了四個甚麼字？ 答案是："I love you, darling!" 作者說，這反應是 Proactive 的（即反過來控制局面，而不被局面控制）。 作者亦盛讚這丈夫是人纇關係的天才，因為兒子的死已成事實，再吵再罵也不會改變事實，只惹來更多的傷心，而且不只自己失去兒子，妻子也失去兒子。 這故事，主旨是彰顯人類選擇的自我層次，同一件不幸的事，你可以怨天尤人，痛罵社會，甚至自責無窮，但事情卻不因這些而改變，這一切只改變了你和日後的生活，負著疤痕的活下去。 反之，放下怨恨和懼怕，放下過去，勇敢活下去，事情的境況原來並不如想象中壞，這就是作者所說的 Proactive Behaviour ，也就是我們所說的由人轉境，而不是被外界事物牽走。 很簡短的故事。但是有多少人能做到呢？當我看到那句" I love you, darling!" 的時候，心中感慨萬千，多麼簡單的一句話，但要有多久的修煉、多大的包容和多深的人生智慧，才能在那種時刻說出如此令人動容的一句話。每個人都有不想讓人所知的不幸事，自己選擇了什麼方式去面對呢？又怎麼去面對未來以及周邊的人和事物？祝你永遠順心喜樂！ 載自二零零四年五月二十四日《談天說道》 | | |
| 「中秋佳節倍思親」我以前都不太相信，但或許是離家已有一段時間吧！剛過了三十五分鐘的中秋節，真的讓我想家。以前在英國不太覺得有過節的氣氛，因為那時在我的世界，香港人實在兩隻手指都能數盡…現在和親戚住變了一個香港人的圈子…感覺…嗯…不懂形容… 因為主，就算我不在港，我中學的幾個好朋友今天也在我家燒烤，感覺好感動，因為我朋友即是我家人的朋友那份感覺是很美的。感謝主。 很多人說，外國的月亮是較圓些，這是必然的吧！不是因為大家在外國生活好，只是緯度的關係吧！其實人的心在那裡，那裡的月亮才是最圓的… | | |
| Wow, I am so happy that I have successfully found the lyrics of my most favourite song "Flying Free" from http://kids.niehs.nih.gov/lyrics/flyingfree.htm and vedios of it from Youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bgCoCcPuNzY. This song really can express my feeling towards life. I think most of us hope to be like a bird flying freely in the sky, singing songs anytime when it like, doing things without doubt or worry, etc. Although birds can fly, their freedom will still be influenced, for example by weather. They will still fly with pain. However, they won't worry too much about these obstacles, they are still flying freely in the sky cos' they know that these are parts of their lives. No matter what they still try their best to fly and survive. From Matthew 7:25-34, although birds and flowers seem less valuable than us, God still provide things they need so why do we have to worry about our life? Time goes swiftly on its way, if we spend most of our time worrying about tomorrow, it's too wasteful. For this reasons, why don't we treasure our time to help others in need and share our love with them, enjoy our life, sing the songs we like and focusing on things which are constructive to let our hearts fly freely? Thank God for this song which has been inspiring me for a long time. I should bear this meaningful lyrics in mind and apply it to my life. It shouldn't be just a song I like... Flying Free There is a place I call my own
Where I can stand by the sea,
And look beyond the things I've known ,
And dream that I might be free.
Like the bird above the trees
Gliding gently on the breeze,
I wish that all my life I'd be
Without a care and flying free!
But life is not a distant sky
Without a cloud, without rain.
And I can never hope that I
Can travel on without pain
Time goes swiftly on its way,
All too soon we've lost today.
I cannot wait for skies of blue
Or dream so long that life is through.
So life's a song that I must sing,
A gift of love I must share .
And when I see the joy it brings,
My spirits soar through the air.
Like that bird up in the sky ,
Life has taught me how to fly.
For now I know what I can be
And now my heart is flying free!
I firstly sang this song when I was 10. I still remember the time when I was a member of Hong Kong Children Choir preforming this song in front of audience. The scenece is still in my brain. On of my classmate preformed the beginning of the song with a flute then we sang along. When we sang it, we were like a bird singing in the sky, telling others what life was. Haha, did I exaggerate the performance?? Haha, anyways, it's my feeling. Flying free, let's not just fly in and wait for blue sky but also learn to fly in the darkness. Wow, big lesson again. If ywe would like to learn, ask God for a hand. | | |
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